Here We Go Again...
So the results are in: Mom's Leukemia is back. We all KNEW this in our head but it is different to hear that it is a fact. Mom follows up with Dr. Porter next Tuesday to discuss next steps. We suspect his line of treatment for relapse will be the most aggressive: re-induction chemo. He had recommended another transplant months ago in hopes of a cure but after the last experience Mom (and the rest of us) did not think it was an option. The induction chemo is the chemo regimen Mom endured in Dec 2005 with a delayed positive result. Her and my dad have some thinking to do. It is a minimum six week hospital stay. It was ugly the first time around and Mom was much stronger. I know in my heart that whatever decision Mom makes, it will be the right one for her and we'll all stand by her side. Please continue to keep us in your prayers. I was just saying to someone today that we were given an entire YEAR longer than what was previously projected for Mom with her dismal diagnosis. We've been blessed countless times and this helps us remember that anything is possible. Keep the faith and we'll check in after Mom's visit next week.
Love,
Jessie
posted by Jessie @ 9:30 PM
17 Comments:
YOu know, it's 10:30 pm out here in calif. and i just read this.... i had a feeling when i saw the pics from florida that you weren't feeling that well, some of the spark was out of your eyes (you always have it when you look at your grandkids) anyways.. i have been trying to think or something inspirational or some encouraging words for you.. but all that comes to mind right now is .... awww sh*t.....(sorry if i offended anyone).. but Deb.. you know that we are all with you in any way,shape , or form.. you have so many people who love you, and we'll all be sending strong prayers to you and your family...love, mdf
Oh Deb - that last posting really made me think how blessed we all are. You are certainly in my prayers and will hop that whatever you decide is the right decision for you and your family. Keep up the faith. You can beat this girl. Love Shelly
Hi Debbie,
I suspected that would be the case. Try to keep positive. I think of you often as I check for an update daily. You're right next to my bank on my favorites list(now everyone knows I don't balance my checkbook, I just see what cleared on line)
So, let me say it again, stay positive,fight hard and beat this thing again. You have so much support from your family and your friends. I look forward to next weeks post. Be strong.
Betty
Hey Deb:
mdf...great minds think alike. I could read it in the FL pics as well. So contemplative are your expressions.
I include the following letter to you from Brendan. For his Confirmation he had to make a display board. On which is a letter to someone they admire.
Here it goes...
Dear Debbie:
I am writing this letter to you because you inspire me in so many ways. I admire your "always positive" attitude and your sense of humor. I am amazed by your faith and strength while battling leukemia. I admire your tender love and care for your family and every person you meet. You always have "the glass is half full" not half empty attitude. You are one of those people who, just their presence can light up a room.
I am looking foward to visiting you again in the future. Our visits to the shore have been a highlight in my life. There - you have gotten together all of my mothers side of the family. You have been the glue, keeping all of us in touch. You always used to take the time to stop what you were doing to do something with us, or play a game. You have inspired me in so many ways and I just want to thank you for your love and help with everything. You are always in my prayers.
Love, Brendan AKA Bee...Age 14
Thought you could use a boost.
Love you to pieces Deb. COD Eileen
Hi Debbie,
It's visitor Alison here.. and well... the pics spoke a thousand words.. in that you and Jess were gloomy (understandable) you were not yourselves ( I know I;ve only know both of you thru this site) sooooo... I do not know for one minute what you are going through... I can just imagine you are at the end of your rope let me just share with you sometimes thru my own grief and saddness I have a panic attack about getting out of bed.. I think of you Deb.. your spirit.. your strength...and I have to pull on your strength to get me thru... I know I have no idea of your pain, your courage, your challenges, but when it seems like my day is overwhelming.., I picture Deb, and the Fod's et all... I know this is too much to ask..of a total stranger... but you can do it Deb... we are all rooting for u... I understand if you don't want to fight anymore.. but ya know what....we all LOVE you...
It's OK Deb.... lol.. remember.. pennys.... they will show up...
lots of love,
Visitor Alison
Deb,
I'm thinking of you every minute.
LK
Hi Debbie,
I was so sorry that you are not feeling well. Let me tell you what an inspiration you have been in my life lately. When I think about how tired I am and do not want to do something... I think about you.
I say a prayer for you first and I say to myself....just do it! How lucky I am to be able to do it.I think to myself Debbie would give anything just to feel well again.
I know it sounds silly but there is not a time that I feel down about something that I say to myself look how lucky I am. You have shown so many of us how precious life really is! We all in this world at some time or another take what we have for grant it! I will always take your strenght to help me throught my day! You are an amazing woman! Keep up the fight Debbie we are all praying so hard for you. Love ya Lady! Wyatt contines to keep you in his prayers. He always wants me to read
your blog to him.
Love,
Donna, Chuck and Wyatt
...we were given an entire YEAR longer than what was previously projected for Mom with her dismal diagnosis. We've been blessed countless times and this helps us remember that anything is possible.
Jessie, I was thinking the exact same thing last night after I spoke with your dad.
Anything IS possible. There is no order of difficulty in miracles. And they take all forms.
BTW, yesterday's word was guidance and I pray that divine guidance will help you with the decisions you face. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.
And mdf - no offense taken. That was mild. (My f-bomb reaction would have definitely offended everyone.)
I love you Chizzie.
K
Okay,, so i've regrouped my thoughts alittle , and i can say is i know from reading back the blogs from last year that you really had some awful days., . but look what your spirit and strength gave you... you beat the odds, and saw mike graduate college, you saw both your beautiful grandkids for christmas, and easter.. you saw your grandaughter walking.. you saw all the support and love at the blood drive, and you've probably caught up with Grey's Anatomy,, i guess what im trying to say,, is personnally i sure hope you still use that strength you've got.. you have alot more christmases, birthdays, thanksgivng etc. to come.. hang on to that towel alittle longer if you can!! lots of love, mdf
Teresa of Avila said, "You pay God a compliment by asking great things of Him." I'm all for giving God LOTS of compliments asking for another miracle - with or without chemo. Jess, you're right - it's one thing to know it in your head, but it's something else to actually hear it (or see it in print). The tears are just welling up. Prayers going up not only for another miracle, but for you to be able to make the right decision for you and for you to be at peace with it. Blessings, Mussie
Dear Deb,Joe and family;
Been thinking about you all,
seems like forever.
I just got back from the
University of Texas,Austin
Grandson Colin came with me.
Matthew Mickeys son graduated
over the weekend in Biomedical
Engineering with 5 Honors I am
so proud of him. I am proud of
all my Grandchildren.
I am so sorry to hear your
news,you know we all are still
praying,and that we love you
and all your family.
Please GOD Bless this family.
BIG HUGS AND LOTSA LOVE
Your Aunt Angie
Hi Deb, its Shelly again. Was just checking to see if ann update and realized that you are going to the doctors tomorrow. My prayers will be with you and hopefully some good news will come from the visit. I admire all your faith and strength and the family and friends that are all behind you. That is clearly an big asset. Keep the chin up good news will follow. Love you. Shelly
I remember the pit in my stomach when I heard my Mom tell me her cancer had returned and I had the same feeling reading your email. Let's focus on the now and enjoy everyday. I will keep in touch and besides Joey is always over fixing my roof anyway.... Jenny
Dearest Deb,
Well, I called a little while ago, but no answer. Thought maybe you were on the phone. Bob said please don't worry about the microwave. He is eating the HUP trays(meatloaf tonight) and I'm going to take some snacks like yogurt and cheese down to keep in the fridge. So I wish you wouldn't worry about getting it down there.
You are in both our prayers tonight, that you hear some encouraging news tomorrow and that the out pt. treatment is feasible....if that is what you want. I'm certainly available to take you down and I would love your company. Know that once again you are surrounded by the love and concern of your legions of friends, one of whom I am so proud and blessed to be. We love you, and I'll talk to you soon.
Love, Mo and Bob
Been thinking about you all day, wondering how the appointment went.. and now i find out its tomorrow!! well, i'll just think about you all day tomorrow also and send good vibes and prayers.. didn't know that outpatient might be a option.. ( i read mo's blog.. she always keeps us up to date) i hope that sounds encouraging, know how much you detest being in the hospital,,,but if it works...... im with you in whatever you decide.. love..mdf
Dear Debbie et al...
This little light of mine, I'm going to let it shine... this little light of mine.. I'm going to let it shine.. this little light of mine.. I'm gonna let it shine.. let it shine.. let it shine.. let it shine....
Debbie, I'm back to lighting a light at 5pm every day for you.. we need to start jamming the switchboard to heaven folks.. come on FOD's lets get together again.... I'll be with you all in spirit at 5pm eastern time.
Debbie... keep on keeping on...
Lots of love, Visitor Alison
We're praying for you Mrs. T!!! Please use the strength and support of allll your friends and family to help get you through this next step. The blogs are all right- you are and always have been an inspiration to everyone around you!
All our love,
Sarah and the Booth Family
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